I have had my current apartment for a year now. It has been a struggle to say the least to be on my own without roommates. In January I lost my higher paying job. It was a shock to say the least. I thought I could survive on my other job. After bills piling up I realized quickly I cannot.
Presently I'm a mess. I hold in my tears daily. I'm still hopeful that things will turn around. I'm hoping sooner than later. I don't want pity. I just want options. My best option right now is giving up the apartment. My family and friends both IRL and internet have kept my afloat. They fill me with hope everyday and keep my positive.
I failed my funeral directors license for the last time in December. I only had until February 1st to apply to University. I had to act quickly. I thought long and hard about what I wanted to do with my life as a career. For the past 7 years the answer was a Funeral Director. But I no longer had that option unless I wanted to repeat the two years course over again. In my head this wasn't an option.
What the future holds I have no idea. My plan is Carleton University for Social Work (Bachelor and then Masters). The problem is my outstanding student loans and that O.S.A.P will not be helping me in this venture. My hope is to accumulate enough scholarships to pay my way. Or hope for a miracle. Whichever comes first I'm cool with.
Until next time.
